Monday 28 April 2008

Moving in slow motion

You know when you have those days? The ones where it just all hits you. How much there is to do. How little time. And you don't freak out as such. You just... you find yourself in a toilet cubicle. Just sat there. Nothing left to do in there, but not quite ready to leave yet. Just sitting. Pausing. Thinking.

Thinking about how much work there is left to do.
Thinking about how your exams start in less than 4 weeks and you've not even finished going through lectures for the first time.
Thinking that you've missed several days at the gym in a row, because there's too much to do.
Thinking about all the coaching plans you need to write.
Thinking about all the rehearsals you've got to go to.
Thinking about all that extra stuff that's sneaking itself into your day. Revision classes. Extra lectures.

It's all a bit too much. And it just feels like you're moving through gel. Everybody else around you is panicking, and you just can't move. You're forced to sit there and endure it. Worse than panicking in a way.

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