One little slip

You know what terrifies me most? Just missing the first. Getting a 69. Even a 68 would be pushing it. If I get a 2i (which I probably will now) I want a 67 or lower. Or the first. The first would be good.

My team didn't qualify. And now every one of them is thinking: was it me that screwed it up? Was there anything more I could have done?

I don't want to stop in my tracks on June 15th and think:
What if I didn't do sport?
What if I didn't coach?
What if I hadn't sang in that concert?
What if I hadn't listened to Mathmo?
What if I hadn't spent so much time with OtherHalf?

I don't want those what ifs. Either I'm a first class candidate, or I'm not. I don't want there to be a What if.