The Fear?

I think I might be getting the Fear. Yes, with a capital. You can hear it when I say it right? I've been wanting the Fear for at least a work. I'm too laid back. Too calm. Only today I started trying to do questions and it's not that I don't know the detail... I just don't know where to start. The essay plan... it's just not in my head. I knew I couldn't do this in first year - but last year it just all sort of slotted together. And now it's gone and I don't know how to get it back.

And every time I start to get my head down and be efficient coaching calls and it all falls apart.
WHY are my priorities so utterly messed up?!